the chronicles of bebe

Sunday, June 01, 2008

where am i headed?

this is the eternal question and it fulfills me with so much fear. i really find it hard to live in the moment and plan well enough for future decisions. i just feel like i'm in a tug of war all the time with the opposite sides pulling towards stability and anarchy. i fall back to good old stability because it's like an easy chair. you can sit there and watch the world go by. maybe a labyrinth would be a better metaphor. i really don't know.moving this towards the concrete, how does this apply to my life right now? i can buy a house or not buy a house. sell the place i'm in or rent it out. simple choices with different consequences, the delorean is really needed sometimes. i really should enjoy life and not take things too seriously. i find that sooooo hard to do at times.

i've enjoyed my time at work this year, it really has been so busy that i haven't much time to think like this. there is always something to do and the constant engagement with students is demanding. kids at that age mainly live and i'm in awe of that. there are kids that live life far too seriously, thankfully they're in the minority. the staff are fantastic at the school and they've helped me so much. their skills provide something for me to aspire to me in my teaching ability and it's wonderful to be challenged in that way. i'm looking very forward to my trip to melbourne over the school holidays and have some fun. i hope the new library will be finished by the end of july. then it is on for something else to occupy my mind.

the next entry i write will be a fun one, all these obtuse ones are a bit of a downer.

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Saturday, December 01, 2007

teaching and home videos

the merry go-round continues its infinite loop and once again i'm going to be working at a school. i know i've been hinting at it all year, but finally i made a choice to stick with. my current job has left me feeling detached in a number of ways and i've felt it more since the new boss started. i just felt i was in no mans land, i don't think i would have gained any new experiences to assist me with a promotion, no chance for holidays and that sealed my decision. i now have got a job at highgate primary and i'm super excited. i get to be teacher librarian and they're building a new library. this will be intense, especially given the fact i'll also be teaching for one day a week. it's always what i've liked about schools, i get the best of both worlds and i can't wait to get my teaching career on the move.

thankfully, nothing much else is happening. new jobs really are enough, i'm lazing around on sunday morning going through old home movies to burn on a dvd for various family members. there are a lot of scary things and so many events i didn't remember. i don't think i'll watch them again anytime soon, they're are good to have around when you can't remember how things were. daft punk is coming up and i wish i had a robot costume. i'll make do with some clothes i have, it would've been fun to wear the whole garb. maybe next time...

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Friday, September 21, 2007

it's late at night - guess what i'm doing

i haven't written a blog entry for a while, there's a lot and little to say. well i'm 28 now and i guess this is the year that i absolutely need to get things achieved within a artistic perspective. i'm halfway through my novel, but i've barely written since july. glenn and i are in a perpetual stop/start phase with the band. so ultimately this means my ass needs to step into gear.

i guess i haven't written because i've been using flixster on facebook and that draws out any kind of writerly urges. i was watching macbeth and it reminded of the power of movies. it's nearly impossible to completely rip somebody else off, movie making is so intricate and even if you tried purposely to copy someone else shot by shot, i don't think you could do it. maybe this is a random statement backed up by little evidence. but watching that version of macbeth by geoffrey wright and it struck me that no one else could possibly make that movie no matter how hard they tried. god i'm talking theory and i haven't even been drinking.

in other life news, i won footy tipping at work and that was a nice bonus. i'm the only person who has won it twice, but both times i've shared and my name is in little letter on the trophy. anyhow, it paid for my daft punk ticket. that's about all i got to say.

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Tuesday, August 07, 2007

it's a blog, a bloggy blog!

Not really, I thought I would get myself excited and pretend there were
eventful things. I'm back to work after having a week off leave and
that was good. I got to see a couple of shows last week and had a blast.
It was particularly epic to see The Cure in the flesh and play for
three hours, it was a test of endurance to be sure, but it was splendid.
The Shins and Lily Allen were also fantastic. I went to the zoo with Al
and saw some creatures. I love that place, it's a gas. The animals are
so amazing, seeing a rhino in the flesh and otters was pretty cool.
Lee Hazelwood died and that was a little sad, though he has had a pretty good run. I hope he found
Phaedra!

My boss has finally resigned and I'm not quite sure what's happening on
that front. I feel like I'm in the middle of something and I don't
know which way I should step. I kind of want to give teaching a second go,
my head space wasn't right at the time. I feel like I've gotta give
something of myself back to the community, while working in a library
does that to some extent. Teaching is more noble, so I've got some
thinking time on my hands.

Thinking about the band and that's firing on all cylinders, Glenn and I
have been rehearsing and writing and the songs are sounding great. I
hope we can play live soon and get the songs out there, because that's
the next point. I read the new Harry Potter and that was an appropriate
ending to the series. I remember reading the first one almost nine
years ago and trying to get others excited. It's hard to believe it became
a phenomenon so quickly, it came out before Y2K and life travels faster
than the time it takes to write these thoughts down. Gotta get back to
living like my hero Matthew McConaughey :)

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Wednesday, July 04, 2007

dry white toast

it feels strange to be talking about this, but it's happening again. no, i'm not talking about that hair growing on my chest or my voice lowering to bruce wayne range. it's about the music, glen and i are starting a band again. we've practiced sporadicaly over the past year and both been distracted by life and now we're going to give it a go. it feels quite surreal doing this at 27, music seems like a young man's sport, but i think i'm far too conscious of these things. if you're intrigued, surprise we have a myspace and it's at myspace.com/reunionsound. it would've been fun to reunite the regents blues brothers style and find simon at some far away diner.

so i just looked at all of the things i was supposed to do over the past month. guess what i stopped putting all of my rage tapes to the dvd hard drve. alex burnt one and it was some strange format, so i might wait until we get a new computer. the new white stripes did give me a boner, i'm never sure if its jack's pants or meg's top. teir albums are pretty sexual for white people.

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

what's up?

what's up is the greatest rhetorical question you can ever ask. things can be up or down or all over the place. what a spread. what's up with me i ask myself at this time of night and i'm sure the internet keeps me up. if i stay away from the net, i can sleep at regular times. i only worked this out now, dumb old me.

the past month has been quiet, it was stressful for a while - but things have settled down. work is work is work, you do it and there are occasionally some funny anecdotes that i can't be bothered elaborating on. i started putting my old rage tapes on to dvd, but it's going to be a long term project, so it should be finished by the end of the month. i feel that we finally have control of the house and that's a great feeling. i also gotta buy some real tea cause i can't drink that bagged shite.

i'm only listening to classical music in the car at the moment, it's a lot more interesting than most of what i heard. reading murakami got me all fascinated about the classical composers, so it's all the archduke trio for me. but i wanna hear the new white stripes, has jack white still got it? yeah i'm sure it will rock my balls in a number of ways. the new ryan adams album will probably give me a giant boner in a platonic man awe sort of way. got to get over the rock star crushes.

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

drinking tea and being me

i love drinking tea, i wasn't so big on it before, but now it has become a central part of my life. i drink tea almost everyday and it's fantastic. i love the warmth it provides, the subtle flavours and that general feeling of wellbeing. but of course it creates a problem, i can't sleep. sometimes i'm able to fall asleep easily if i have a cup at about eight, but otherwise i'll be up until the sun rises and so you will find me here ranting.

work has been busy, i think my boss is going to leave. that leaves me to fill the hotseat, i don't know if i want to take it. the money would be nice, however it means i'm at least committing to two years in the post and i'm not sure if that will work for me. it's all kind of heresay until there is an official announcement. i feel so drained coming home from work everyday, there has to be something to make me feel better about things. again moving up in that world only means more responsibility and i don't want to be called on off times about alarms and general other bollocks. how did people do it back in the day?

tuesday nights are kind of boring, we've been watching all of dark angel and now alias can shine in the sun. alias is so cool with all of the inventions and general ass kickiness. dark angel isn't bad, it's a little cheesy at times and the first season drags. this blog entry is also dragging. be more interesting. we're finally getting gas for the winter and that was a long drawn out ordeal. i also bought a dvd recorder on the weekend, so i can transfer all of my videos to the digital atmosphere. i'm feeling so blahhhhh, but i might as well say hooray!

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